Meet the new me, same as the old me.
I’ve been feeling really good these last few days. I feel excited and driven, and I feel lots of momentum pulling in good directions again. Recently, I’ve felt like I’ve been just spinning my wheels lately, not doing some of the things that I should have been doing for a while now.
I have no doubt that part of the reason for these good feeling is that I’ve been riding my bike to and from work for a month or two now. I’ve dropped about ten pounds in that time, and lost some of the schlubbiness (Did I just make up that word?) that I’d been carrying around for the last year. The exercise has also started to improve my mood. I feel much more outgoing and spontaneous again. I’m even starting to feel slightly attractive and romantic again, after taking myself off of the market when my friend had her ‘incident’ a few months ago. See, the woman I was kind of dating at the time had her own ideas about why my friend did what she did. She was convinced that my friend was in secretly in love with me, and that her attempt was a way to reel me back in again. She also had the idea that my friend saw her as a ‘threat’, and that I should think of my friend ‘more romantically.’ It was horrible. I never talked to her again.
So I’ve spent the intervening months not dating, and not even trying to meet anyone either. I had such a bad taste in my mouth from that last person, and I was so traumatized by what my friend had done that I just wasn’t up to any kind of reaching out. I was pretty much operating on auto-pilot until I went on tour with Breanna and Justin at the end of June. That was the jump-start I needed to get my life back on track again; to get away from all of the craziness and get out of town for a while.
Two months later, I think I’m back. Finally.
The other night at the gig with IrishBand, I met a new person that I’m very interested in seeing more of. She came to the show with a guy, and since I assume that every cute girl who arrives with a guy is WITH that guy, I didn’t try too hard to ‘chat her up’ when they sat at our table, but we had a great time talking for a while, before the band had to get up and play. At the end of the night, she gave me the nicest hug ever. I’m a hug fan, and it’s hard to find people who are good huggers, so when I meet someone who does it right, I always think, ‘This is my kind of person.’ I have a feeling I’ll be writing more about her before too long. Too soon to know what will happen. I don’t even know what her situation is, either, but I’m just excited to find out.
I feel particularly good about it because I’m so open right now. It’s the perfect time to meet someone new, and just at the moment when I’ve been feeling that, here comes someone, as if by magic.
Keep your fingers crossed.